Under My Skin

Under my skin?! Flesh! The end.

Okay, that was a lame joke. Honestly, I have no idea what exactly this post is going to be about. But I want to  share a little something I've noticed a while back. A lot of the people who knows me say that I'm a nice and calm guy. But in fact, I can actually have a very bad temper, and not many knows this. A good example is around my family. I easily get annoyed with my parents and my brother. For example, my brother tapping  on his desk, and I easily get frustrated. Sometimes my anger comes out easily. But I am trying to correct this, and I believe there has been quite a significant improvement. But with my friends, it can be the opposite. I have way more control over my temper when I am around them. But I think this is a family thing for me. I mean, as much as I love them, I cannot say the words "I Love You", even "Happy Birthday" isn't that easy for me to say. Pretty sad eh. 

However, there is something I did realize. To some of my closer friends, I tend to have a similar habit towards them as I do with my family. The only slight difference is that, rather than let them know directly, instead I try to do it a bit more indirectly. But I still try to keep it to myself as much as possible. Oddly enough, I think that when I reach this point, it's probably because I've grew quite close to them. I hope you understand what I'm trying to say. So if ever one of my friends is reading this right now and has ever felt what I'm trying to say, think of it as another way of saying "I Love You". XD Oh! And for those who has never felt nor saw me getting frustrated or angry towards you, do not worry, I love you too =) it is either because:

1. There probably isn't any reason for me to feel any kind of negative emotion towards you. (I guess you're doing a good job then XD)

2. I am probably doing a good job holding it in.

3. There is no need for me to let it out because it probably isn't very important and probably better to simply let go.

So to my loved ones (you better know who you guys are!), it does not matter how I express my feelings towards you, I just want you to know that I care and love you guys very much! My goodness! The ending feels soooo cheesy and corny! Oh well, too bad! =P

"Anybody can become angry - that is easy, but to be angry with the right person and to the right degree and at the right time and for the right purpose, and in the right way - that is not within everybody's power and is not easy." - Aristotle