Coincidence?

For quite a few days now, I have been having this weird thing on my eye. Apparently its an infection. My mom has been wanting me to go to the hospital and get it checked. But being stubborn, I decided to leave it alone and let it heal on its own. But then I realize, it started to turn out different. So after doing some research, I realized maybe it is time to change my way a little bit. So I got ready and my mom was going to drop me off to the clinic because she had work in the afternoon. We see my uncle (not by blood, just a reference of respect, very common in Asia) park his car and we greet him. Coincidentally, he too had his own infection on his eye and had to visit a doctor. So luckily for my mom, she got to rest, and my uncle and I would then visit the hospital together. I was relieved because I would not be alone since I wanted company. 

We arrived at the hospital, and man did we wait quite a long time. We arrived around 11:15ish and left after 2. However, the wait was worth it! Somehow, the main doctor that was suppose to see me was not available, so someone else took his place. It was this cute Asian nurse! I was nervous when I was in the room, but when she came in, my heart beat just calmed instantly! XD Yeah, I sound like a freak don't I? I had no idea they would make a minor procedure. They took a needle and sucked out some stuff out of my eyelid. It felt like I was getting my blood taken, and I despise that! So for half of the day, I had to go around with an eye patch. I really gotta thank my uncle for being patient and even treating me for pizza.

(Scout Sparrow!! As named by a friend XD)

When the hospital stuff was finally done, we had to head to the pharmacy. How unlucky must I be, when I showed my prescription, the pharmacist said that they no longer have this and that any other pharmacy does not have it either. He said I will need to go back to the hospital and get another prescription. I did not want to go through all that hassle, so I decided to try the pharmacy next door. I arrived and I hear the same news, that prescription is in back order and no longer available. However, they made me wait in the waiting area. I wondered why. A few minutes later, another pharmacist came to me, she was very attractive and Asian! (Yeah, I have a thing for Asian girls =P) She actually took care of everything. Rather than make me go back, she called the hospital and tried to fix things up for me. And before I know it, she had a substitute for that previous prescription. So of course I thanked her, and will definitely be back to this pharmacy rather than the other. Coincidence? No idea, but I am glad things turned out this way today.

My day is finally done, and I am glad for everything that has happened today. I believe God set this up for me. My eye is already healing. Like they say, God has things planned out for you. In the name of Jesus, I am healed!!! He is our healer after all. =)

 "Trust in the LORD with all your heart; and lean not upon your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct your path." - Proverbs 3:5-6

The Next Step

As many probably know, I am graduating this year (2012). As promised, I will share my experience i went through my internship. It's funny because, when I got accepted as an intern at the company I applied for, I was very excited, and couldn't wait to start. But as the day got closer to D-Day, the more I got less excited and wished I was already done. I shared this with a couple of friends. So they thought that maybe it was because I am not interested in this kind of field. But that was not the case. In fact, it's probably because I got so used to having so much free time, that I wanted to continue having this type of life.

My first couple days went smoother than I expected. The workers were very kind. Though there were a few things that I did not really like during the internship. Making phone calls. For some reason, I would get nervous or something. It was not the easiest thing for me. However! There was this one phone call I had to make which I sort of enjoyed. I had to call Transat Holidays to get information on a trip to Disney. So why did I enjoy this phone call? It is not because of "Disney", but because the girl on the other line had a beautiful voice! =P

I did get unlucky a few times as I had to make my way to the workplace. Twice during my internship was I late. So much for giving a good impression. But it was not my fault. The reason is because of incidents that took place in the Metro (Subway). The first incident was due to a smoke bomb. When I got to work, the manager said I could of just stayed home rather than go through all the hassle. The second incident was because of some accident. I think some people went on the rails. But I do not know the details.

Of course, there was definitely some positive stuff during this internship. I learned a lot and realized a bit better on what I want to do. In the beginning, I was not very sure if I wanted to work at a Travel Agency but now I know it isn't that bad especially if i get to work with the same type of people I had during the stage. They knew how to joke around and bring in humor, as opposed to what I heard from my other classmates in which they said some workers would stress quite a bit. They also gave me the opportunity to do many of my own personal research which was pretty awesome. I got to learn quite a few things in which I was personally interested in.

This was simply a brief description on how this internship turned out. There were ups and downs but I am glad I was finally able to get through it. Ultimately, what matters is that another chapter of my life has finally been completed. Though my goal is still somewhat unclear and I am  not quite sure where to head right now, what I do know is that God will lead me there, and this is but another obstacle I have yet to climb over.

"May your trails be crooked, winding, lonesome, dangerous, leading to the most amazing view.  May your mountains rise into and above the clouds." - Edward Abbey

Internship - Week One

My internship has started for over a week now. Honestly, I was very nervous and had no idea what to expect from my stage. But when I entered the office, the other agents welcomed me warmly. The manager was not there, so I got even more nervous for the next day. Opposite from what I first thought, it went pretty smooth working with him. I really like the fact that they give me the chance to do a lot of my own research. I really want to work with destinations related to Asia, however the company I am currently doing my internship does not specialize on my interest. But with the opportunity they are giving me, it really gives me the chances to learn more about what I want to learn personally.

Though there was some negative points to my first week of internship. The first couple of days felt like my stay at the office would never end. Being there for eight hours can at times be excruciating. And there was one thing I really hate that I had to do, making phone calls. I just can't get myself to do that. I know, as an agent I shouldn't have that problem, but I really do like talking to other representatives. Once, I had to call Rail Europe to speak with a representative, I had to wait a minimum of thirty minutes to get someone to speak with me! Maybe if it was to call a client to inform them that their ticket has arrived, then that would be better. I am simply hoping I won't have to do anymore phone calls for the rest of my stage. If I do, hopefully it is something  much easier and simple just like the one I mentioned earlier, call the client to say "you're ticket has arrived".

For the more positive stuff, the atmosphere is actually quite good. The whole team has quite some humor. I am somewhat shy, so I cannot laugh as loud as they do. And when the Boss is not there, I am working will only female workers. At times they would talk about "girl stuff" even when I am around. It can be awkward!!! But what can I do. Oh! And I found a way for time to go by faster. Since I am there from 9:30 to 5:30, I've decided to take my lunch around 1:45pm. I would return around 2:45, and would have only 2 hours and 30 mins left. 

In less than 10 hours, I start my second week of internship. I really hope this week will go by quickly. I make it sound like I am not liking this type job. It's not bad, and I am sure I can adjust, but within this career, there are many more options for me to choose from. I just want this to be done, and I would then try to apply in a place where I think I would be even more comfortable. Like I said earlier, I want a place where I can specialize with Asia or I would also like to work for an airline. There is a long road waiting for me, and I believe God has things planned out. However, this is an obstacle I have to climb over. I will do what I can and persevere, and hopefully come out a stronger person.

"On the mountains of truth you can never climb in vain: either you will reach a point higher up today, or you will be training your powers so that you will be able to climb higher tomorrow." - Friedrich Nietzsche

Just Another Dream

Everyone dreams. Some people say they do not, but truth is, they do. They just don't remember it. Yup, Psychology class thought me something. For this post, I've decided to share a few of my dreams that I dreamed of a couple of nights ago. I remember two of them.

Starting off with the first one. I was at school, and for some reason, the power went off and everyone went crazy. Then I realized, I was naked! (Yeah, I know what the...) So I run around stealthily hoping to find some clothing I can use. Then somehow, after the blink of an eye, I was suddenly holding on to clothing. So I ran very quickly, avoiding people, hoping to find a spot I can quickly dress myself. When that was done, the lights went back on. A few minutes later, I bumped into a friend of mine, we walked and talked for a bit, and somehow met Chris Tucker beside something that looked like a hot dog stand or something inside a building....This dream ended with me bragging on Facebook about the fact that I met Chris Tucker out of the blue.

The other dream that I remembered was a very weird one as well. I was in my room. I suddenly hear the sound of speeding cars, some were the sound of crashes, and some of honking. I take a look outside my window, and I see something very strange. Right in the middle of the road was a huge perfect pit hole. It was very dark. Some speeding cars were able to run across it. Some slower cars would simply fall in. And some that tried to dodge it through the sides, well some succeeded, and some didn't. The way this dream ended was when a car tried to speed up in hopes of getting across it like some did. So this person sped up, however, only half the vehicle landed on the other side. So he was hanging there for a few seconds, until finally, his car slipped off and fell. 

The end. Pretty weird eh?! I had other dreams like this. One of them was like a Resident Evil Simulation. If anything, maybe I'll write it down one day.  But hey, through Psychology class and some research (and the Discovery Channel), I learnt that what we dream of all has a meaning, happens through our experiences in life or even simply dream due to our imagination.

"I am imagination. I can see what the eyes cannot see. I can hear what the ears cannot hear. I can feel what the heart cannot feel." - Peter Nivio Zarlenga 

Night & Day

My motivation and confidence is totally different at night and during the day.

Let us say I am in a certain situation, and something must be done. For example, maybe there is this girl I like and I had this particular interest towards her for quite a while now. Remember, this is an example. So I've reach a point where I think it would probably be time for me to confess. So night has arrived, I would then contemplate for some time, but in the end, my decision would most likely be: Do It! and if it is still night time, chances are, I let her know, by either leaving her a message or something.

But then, once I wake up, I would probably be thinking many negative thoughts such as "why did I leave her a message?!", or "I shouldn't of done anything!", and many more similar thoughts.

However, if that night I said "Alright! I am ready for this! Tomorrow, I will try to set up something to meet up with her and confess!", what would the result be that next morning? Errr...not very good. What would probably happen is that, I would be less confident, thinking that maybe I should not go on with what I have planned that night before.

So for many situations, whether its about love, joining a new sports organization, or even an internship (which currently, I have mixed emotions about, I'm not too sure what to look forward to at the moment), this is how I tend to react to them. At night, I would be full of confidence and motivation to fulfill a plan I had in mind. However, the next morning, its either I lose a big chunk of that, or simply feel some regret if ever I did take action that same night.

Sigh, it can be complicated, but what can I do. Every day we learn new things, and as life go on, eventually I hope to find a way to keep this confidence and motivation to be more stable, without the need to worry about these feelings to fluctuate from night to day.

"We gain strength, and courage, and confidence by each experience in which we really stop to look fear in the face... we must do that which we think we cannot." - Eleanor Roosevelt